Winter

I am always so happy, before winter comes.  When it does come, I honestly hate it.  It's way to cold for me.  I love how beautiful it is when the sun is shinning, but once I feel that cold air I just want to run back inside and stay under the covers all day.  I hate that I have to start my car earlier in the morning, and I hate that I sometimes have to brush it off.  I wish it wasn't so cold out.  I refuse to drive my car to school in the winter time, I know for a fact that I will get into a accident at this high school.  I know that my car will be hit because someone starts sliding because of the ice (which it shouldn't be icy in the school parking lot don't you think?)  I also won't drive my car because it takes forever to get out of the parking lot.  I think the real reason I won't drive my car to school is, it's the first year I have had my license in the winter and i get very nervous because it is so icy out.  Every year I go through the happy phase right before Winter, by then end I hate it. I get sick of it.  I love that we can ride snowmobiles and go sledding! I have to admit I still love getting dressed for Winter just to go and play out in the snow.  I love to play in the snow with my little brother. Winter isn't my favorite season, but i like it. I always go back and forth. One minute i hate it the next i love it.  I wanted it to snow so bad, but when it did, i didn't want it here in more.  I was already sick of it.

Growing Stronger

Mason City High School, has united. We got through all this chaos together, and we are still growing strong. We always thought that it would never happen to our school, but with in 2 weeks 2 kind hearted kids passed, Colby Schmidtke, and Zach Graney. I can see our school becoming stronger day by day. I see kids that I would have never thought they would have even looked at each other, standing together and sitting together. I see a lot more smiles in the halls and a lot more laughter. I cherish everything now. Everything someone says to me I take it to heart. Even cards that people have given to me, I cherish. I tell my mom and dad that I love them, before I leave, and before I hang up the phone. No one knows what will happen next; only God knows. I don't care who you are or where you came from nothing is promised for anyone. So live your life like there is no tomorrow. Cherish everything. Tomorrow is not promised to anyone young or old alike, and today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved ones tight. So if your waiting for tomorrow why not today? For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day. That you didn't take the extra time for  a smile, a huge, or a kiss, and you were to busy to grant someone what turned out to be their last wish. So hold you loved ones close today, and whisper in their ear. Tell them  how much you love them, and that you'll always hold them dear.  Take the time to say, "I'm sorry," "Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay." And if tomorrow never comes you'll have no regret about today.

I never thought that one of my friends and my cousin would die so young, or even a week apart. I now know that death can creep upon anyone. The school will never be the same, without these two strong boys you brightened up every one's day. It's hard to lose someone who you were so close too, and now that the holidays are coming up it will be even harder. Even though so many people tell me they are here for me still doesn't change anything, I feel like a part of me is gone, and it will never come back. I do appreciate every one's support, it really means a lot.

Live your life to the fullest, and never give up.

Colby Allen Schmidtke

I Just want everyone to know that not only is Colb, my cousin, but he is also my brother and best friend. Colb did now deserve this, he was such a kind hearted person, he never liked to see anyone down, he would do this girly scream, just to make someone smile, and i love it. When he sings to songs it just makes me laugh. One part he knows the next part he just hums along.  We all thought he would pull though, but that just didn't happen, he had severe head trauma, and he was Brian dead. if only he wouldn't have hit his head he would still be here today. I loves facebook, and texting. He also loves being with his best friend Dustin. Me and him always sang together, he always told me i had a great voice and he loved my singing.  Me and him always talked about our graduation party and that we hoped our grandma would still be alive, but now Colb isn't. He had made me so much stronger.  i biggest fear was dying, but he got me over that fear, bc i know he will be waiting on the other side for me. That kid was so clumsy but i love it. everybody loves his clumsiness. he had his whole life ahead of him, i remeber this one time, and i will never forget it, we were riding his snowmobile, and we went up this hill that we had thought was hard, but it wasn't and some how we fell off, and that damn thing fell on my leg, not even a second later that kid had it off of me and comforting me. When ever one of us would fall off our bike or fall down the stairs we would laugh at each other like there was no tomorrow. I just want everyone to know he was the best person ever. I loved him dearly.
Watch over us Colb, help us all be safe.
Rest In Peace
Love, Sara<3

Family

I have 2 brothers one is younger and one is older. My family and I are so close.  We have gotten much closer as I get older.  My mom means so much to me I tell her everything about my life, my mom is like my best friend, there is not one thing she doesn't know about me.  We use to fight so much, but now, I think it's because I am maturing more, we are a lot closer than ever.  Me and my dad are close too, but not like my mom and I.  Our whole family is so close, if something happens to someone, everyone has each other's back.  My little brother has made me mature so much, if it wasn't for him i don't think i would be the same today.  Watching him and taking care of him when I was younger, made me think about a lot of things. My family means so much to me, with out them i wouldn't have gone anywhere with my life.  I am glad that I have such a supportive family. My mom is such a nice lady now that i look back, i wish i wouldn't said the things i said to her when i was younger.  Anyone would love my mom.  My dad I know would do anything for me, he is so over protective. I love the family i have, we all have such a great bond.  I think family is so important to people. It is so important to have support from your family. I don't know how anyone can get through life without your family's support, and if you do, your amazing.  You must be so strong, because i couldn't be able to do it.

"Seeking Attention"

Many, many girls in this high school are "seeking attention" from they guys.  They show off their body so the guys will talk about them so they feel good about themselves.  I have seen so many girl where shorts with their butts hanging out.  I was so shocked.  One girl actually had her cheeks hanging out.  I don't know how the teachers can let that fly, when shorts and skirts are suppose to be arms length.  And I also don't know how they walked out of their houses, because my parents sure wouldn't let me out of my house like that.  It seems like the younger girls are the ones that are showing everything off.

They should put more clothes on.  It's honestly disturbing to see those things.  And it's kind of putting ladies on a lower level, because the guys think they can just sweet talk the girls.  When they show everything off they are letting the guys know that girls are actually easy.  But they are completely wrong, they only "easy" girls are the one's that fall for their bull crap sayings.  And the ones that show off everything they got.

I swear every year the freshman get not sluttier but close to that.  I think it's because more teenagers are having sex at a younger age.  Not all freshman are like that by all means, but some are. I think they are still maturing, and they think that they need to show they guy what they have instead of showing them what they are like.  I guess I can say I use to be like that.  Until I matured a lot.  I think that a lot of girls are the same way.

What is easier to love or to hate?

I think it is easier to love someone than to hate someone.  If you hate someone your probably focusing all your energy on them, and how much you hate them. And I am sure if they walk by your going to probably talk about them.  I think hating someone takes a lot more energy than loving someone. Loving someone makes you feel better, when you see that person.  Hating someone gets you in a bad mood, when you see them. 

So why do we hate so many people?  Is it because we are jealous?  Well that could be it.  Is it because they did something to hurt you?  Well that also could be it.  Is it because, of their looks? I'm sure it is.  There are other reasons why people hate people, and to be honest when someone hates someone they don't really have a reason to. Well of course if they hurt you in some way that is a reason to dislike someone. And I am sure that some people do hate people, but most people hate because they don't know that person very well.  Hate is such a strong word. My mom always tells me you don't hate them you dislike them, she also believes hate is a strong word.  And I can see where she is coming from.

So why do we love so many people?  Because they make us happy, they do things for us, they pick us up when we are down.  They will be there for you whenever you need someone, they help us with anything we need. There are so many things why people love the people do, and they have reasons for loving them. Love is also a very strong word. 

So what do you think is easier, to love or to hate?
 

Growing Up

i still go back to this day and think about how much i had as being a little kid i think about how much fun i had playing with the neighborhood  kids we would play many many games but someone would always get hurt i think about how i never had a care in the world i would just run around like a free butterfly.  but now that im growing up everything is just so different from now and then.  when  i was younger we were asked what we would like to be when we grow up. so we would just say silly things like a ice cream man and other silly jobs but now when i am asked what do you wanna be i have to think of something more serious something that will get me through life it's so weird now.  I am almost to the age where i can live on my own, and relay on myself.  I never really thought i would grow up so fast.  now i know why everyone says "oh your growing up soo fast" i see it now. I will be in college withinn 2 years or soo and on my own and it's kinda scary.  I never pictured myself living without my parents.  sometimes i wish i could go back to those free years where nothing mattered, i had no stress and nothing to worry about, but iknow i can't. high school is what i think changes you. everything kicks in and to many people it's scary. it's amazing how yoour school years fly right past you.  my freshman year i kept telling myself oh i got 4 or 5 more years before i gotta get my act together but my sophomore year was the year i noticed that grades mattered if you wanted to go to a very good college so last year was probably when i grew up and it was the changing point in my life.  Everything changes so fast and there is nothing you can do about it.

Invisible Wounds

the human mind is never prepared to see ppl get torn to peices.  no matter how much you try and prepare yourself something will always surprise you. no one really knows what the troops in iraq go through only they do they are probably the most bravest and toughest ppl out there.  they to war and see ppl die they see little kids die they see ppl get blown apart and some of them might see there bestfriends get killed. how many ppl really know why we are still fighting? well i can you that i really dont know the reason why we are still there.  and the media isnt really doing agreat job of telling us either, so it seems like no one knows? i read in a times article that more soilders are comitting suicide. in june 32 suspected suicides one of the highest monthly totals in army history. a lot of the soilders are traumtized by what they have seen, and they need help.... but we dont have the "money" to help them when they risk their lives for us? what bull.  they are out there figthting for. and when they get back all we can say is that we dont have money when you just worked your ass off for us and almost got killed. i beilive that the troops need to back home to their families and friends.  we are also spending a lot of money there.  its really not helping us that we are there.... but we are helping the women in afganastan. as long as we are there the women are safe.  a lot of inocent suvillians are getting killed bc we are there more and more troops are seeing pshychartists. they NEED to come home